141! I Can't Believe It!

I got on the scale this morning and lo and behold I was 141lbs. That doesn't seem real! I have been counting my calories and tracking my protien intake and working out. So I guess it makes sense. Half a lb more and I'll be able to say I've lost 65lbs. That is just crazy! Especially since I still feel so fat.

I been using a site called my-calorie-counter.com and its been great for tracking everything I put into my body. I did have to do quite a bit of research to figure out how many calories I should be getting in. I guess anywhere between 800 - 1000 is where I should be. So I aim for 900 and 65g of protien. Although, I am pretty sure the nutritionist might want me to up it to 70g if I can.

I've been enjoying going to pilates or working out at home. I can see the beginning of a six pack emerge on my tummy. I still have a good inch of fat layering the top of the muscle, but its getting there. My legs, however, are not. I mean they are getting thinner, and more muscular, but they are still huge. My arms are also getting more muscular, but I have the hanging fat still.

Well I guess that's all stuff to keep me motivated. I haven't weighed in the 130s for over 10years, so I am really excited about seeing 13something!

I thought I was alomost done losing weight. I was 147 when I went to GA for Christmas and I worked out there and saw 146 at the gym, but when I got home I was 147 again. Then in 2 weeks I've lost 6 pounds. WOW! I am just in shock...

60 pounds down and 30 - 40 to go.

Compulsive Eating

I guess the good news is that I notice myself doing it. The bad thing is that I can't control it quite yet. I made Christmas cookies for my parents neighbours, of course, I taste tested my product - as a good chef would do. I became osessed over these little lime meltaways. They weren't even that good. I just kept going back for another one and another one until I had eaten about 10 of them - maybe more. I felt sick, but then I felt like I needed to eat - I guess that's what they call a trigger food. So I ate wassa bread with hummus and cheese - a good meal, but I ate twice as much as I should have. Still, I wanted to eat, so I ate grapes - way too many of them. Then after a couple hours of fighting the urge to puke, I gave in and puked.

Then I went down and ate half a slice of meatloaf - and puked that up. Then after dinner, I snacked on some pistachios and was able to control the portion, but I still felt like snacking. I gravitated towards the meltaways - I wanted some so badly. This broken one kept calling to me to be eaten. What is the deal with that? Ididn't eat it - only because my sister stoped me though...

147.5lbs - Minus 58lbs

I have been trying really hard lately to eat my protien and still am not getting enough in. I really enjoy having oatmeal in the morning but it doesn't have any protien. My hair is getting quite thin - luckily it started off really, really thick. I also need to exersize. I think about it every day but haven't been doing it. TODAY! I will do a tape while Wyatt is napping.

What Have I Been Eating

South Beach Diet Deli Wraps. I normally try to eat just one wrap for lunch. Its got a lot of protien. Yesterday I had a Lean Pocket - I was surprised how low in fat it was and high in protien. It didn't really agree with me - I didn't vomit, but I felt bloated. 1 pc of whole wheat bread with low fat herbed cream cheese and sliced turkey. YUM. Umm what else do I have for lunch or dinner? Oh - one egg and 3 slices of turkey bacon for breakfast, or half a packet of oatmeal with sugar and milk and then half a container of light and fit yogurt.

Snacks: I haven't been and I need to - I need to add protien since my hair has begun falling out. Bag girl! I have been trying to drink a glass of mikl though. I just hate those shakes.

Dinner - mmmm - tonight I had a lamb tenderloin with mint jelly. Yummy. I love the lamb! So does Wyatt - which is good he's keeping in tradition with a good Aussie meal.

I was eating those 100 cal museli bars, but got sick of them, plus they really don't have any nutritional value. I have had a cookie this week - didn't like it. Plus I also tasted everyone's bread final. Didn't eat later that night - so that's very naughty - NEED PROTIEN!! I'm trying though. I should start recording my protien intake and then make adjustments. Maybe when I go on vacation I can start that. Too busy right now.

149.5! 56 pounds lost

I am so excited. I have finally reached the 140s. I am hoping to reach 145 by New Years Eve. So I have to lose .5 - 1lb a week for the next 6 weeks. I am going to be so happy if I can do it!

Me at 151 - minus 54 pounds