40 by 40

That's my new mantra. 40lbs off by my 40th birthday. I'm almost to my 5 year post op anniversary and that's how much I've gained! So I weigh 170lbs again.

It's time to forgive and forget and to also remember I've had a baby since my surgery. I also want to come up with 39 other things that will make me a better and happier person by 40!

Start of List
1. Lose 40lbs
2. Become a Master Gardener
3. Plastic surgery
4. Run 3 miles every other day.
5. Calisthenics on the days I don't run.
6. Finish my curriculum.
7. Spray tans! No more sun damage to my face.
8. Shape my children into good people.
9. Always remember my reusable bags.
10. Wash my face every night before bed.
11. Drink my minimum water every day
12. Be a thoughtful friend, sister, daughter and wife.

Me at 141 pounds

I went and got some skincare stuff today. The more weight I lose the more wrinkles I see around my eyes! I went to the Olay website and they had this really cool survey that you can take. They take inro account all your concerns and then they tell you which product would be best for you. I needed stuff for wrinkles, age spots and dark circles. Still...not bad for almost 35! But this pic has good lighting and I have make up on. The pic below is more accurate - see the dark circles etc - I have no make up on!

141! I Can't Believe It!

I got on the scale this morning and lo and behold I was 141lbs. That doesn't seem real! I have been counting my calories and tracking my protien intake and working out. So I guess it makes sense. Half a lb more and I'll be able to say I've lost 65lbs. That is just crazy! Especially since I still feel so fat.

I been using a site called my-calorie-counter.com and its been great for tracking everything I put into my body. I did have to do quite a bit of research to figure out how many calories I should be getting in. I guess anywhere between 800 - 1000 is where I should be. So I aim for 900 and 65g of protien. Although, I am pretty sure the nutritionist might want me to up it to 70g if I can.

I've been enjoying going to pilates or working out at home. I can see the beginning of a six pack emerge on my tummy. I still have a good inch of fat layering the top of the muscle, but its getting there. My legs, however, are not. I mean they are getting thinner, and more muscular, but they are still huge. My arms are also getting more muscular, but I have the hanging fat still.

Well I guess that's all stuff to keep me motivated. I haven't weighed in the 130s for over 10years, so I am really excited about seeing 13something!

I thought I was alomost done losing weight. I was 147 when I went to GA for Christmas and I worked out there and saw 146 at the gym, but when I got home I was 147 again. Then in 2 weeks I've lost 6 pounds. WOW! I am just in shock...

60 pounds down and 30 - 40 to go.

Compulsive Eating

I guess the good news is that I notice myself doing it. The bad thing is that I can't control it quite yet. I made Christmas cookies for my parents neighbours, of course, I taste tested my product - as a good chef would do. I became osessed over these little lime meltaways. They weren't even that good. I just kept going back for another one and another one until I had eaten about 10 of them - maybe more. I felt sick, but then I felt like I needed to eat - I guess that's what they call a trigger food. So I ate wassa bread with hummus and cheese - a good meal, but I ate twice as much as I should have. Still, I wanted to eat, so I ate grapes - way too many of them. Then after a couple hours of fighting the urge to puke, I gave in and puked.

Then I went down and ate half a slice of meatloaf - and puked that up. Then after dinner, I snacked on some pistachios and was able to control the portion, but I still felt like snacking. I gravitated towards the meltaways - I wanted some so badly. This broken one kept calling to me to be eaten. What is the deal with that? Ididn't eat it - only because my sister stoped me though...

147.5lbs - Minus 58lbs

I have been trying really hard lately to eat my protien and still am not getting enough in. I really enjoy having oatmeal in the morning but it doesn't have any protien. My hair is getting quite thin - luckily it started off really, really thick. I also need to exersize. I think about it every day but haven't been doing it. TODAY! I will do a tape while Wyatt is napping.

What Have I Been Eating

South Beach Diet Deli Wraps. I normally try to eat just one wrap for lunch. Its got a lot of protien. Yesterday I had a Lean Pocket - I was surprised how low in fat it was and high in protien. It didn't really agree with me - I didn't vomit, but I felt bloated. 1 pc of whole wheat bread with low fat herbed cream cheese and sliced turkey. YUM. Umm what else do I have for lunch or dinner? Oh - one egg and 3 slices of turkey bacon for breakfast, or half a packet of oatmeal with sugar and milk and then half a container of light and fit yogurt.

Snacks: I haven't been and I need to - I need to add protien since my hair has begun falling out. Bag girl! I have been trying to drink a glass of mikl though. I just hate those shakes.

Dinner - mmmm - tonight I had a lamb tenderloin with mint jelly. Yummy. I love the lamb! So does Wyatt - which is good he's keeping in tradition with a good Aussie meal.

I was eating those 100 cal museli bars, but got sick of them, plus they really don't have any nutritional value. I have had a cookie this week - didn't like it. Plus I also tasted everyone's bread final. Didn't eat later that night - so that's very naughty - NEED PROTIEN!! I'm trying though. I should start recording my protien intake and then make adjustments. Maybe when I go on vacation I can start that. Too busy right now.