7 weeks and -37lbs

Yesterday was my 7 week anniversary. I've lost 37 pounds. So that's 22lbs in the first two weeks and then 3lbs per week since. This week has been hard as we've been running lots of errands getting ready for Eric's departure. He's been eating out a lot. Today I didn't eat until 5pm and then I overate by a ounce or so. I've been vomitting since.

Its hard to gauge how much. I really wasn't hungry today, but then when I got off from school and realized Eric wasn't comming home, I wanted to eat. This is one of those things I need to get a grip on. Definately a reason I put on the weight - I'm an emotional eater.

My energy seems to be almost 100% again. I think I am going to try out a trip to the gym tomorrow. That's exciting. I'd love to lose 3 lbs this week for a total of 40. That might be unrealistic, but its fun to hope.

I've been worrying about saggy skin. My legs seem to be the worst. I don't know if the military will operate on my legs. I do know they will give me tummy tuck after one year. I am hoping that I am near my goal at 1 year (-100lbs) and that I can have the cosmetic surgeries before Eric comes home on mid-tour next summer...

5 week anniversary

Today is my 5 week anniversary. I am oficially at 30.5lbs lost. I can't believe it's onlt been 5 weeks. It feels like it should be 5 months with the amount of weight I've lost.

I'm going to a support group tonight. I'm going to try to go twice a month. Its nice to hear what other people have to say and share ideas - epsecially about what you can eat!! LOL

I ate 3 tablespoons of oatmeal for breakfast this morning with a teaspoon of sugar. Yummy! I'm waiting form teh 30 mins to be over so I can have a drink! I'm thirsty! Its going to take some time to get used to not drinking with my meals or 30 mins before and after them.

Scars

I have 6 yucky scar sites. Here are a few for you to feast your eyes on.

Throwing Up

Things have been going pretty well. I was in a lot of pain for the first 4 weeks and very tired. I hated crushing up my medication and eating it with apple sauce! I decided to cut back on the Prilosec as I was taking 4 Tums per day for calcium in addition to drinking Mylanta for gas. Turns out that my decision was a really bad one as the Prilosec also cures ulcers. I was in pain because I had a big, fat ulcer! Stupid me! Anyway, after doubling up on the Prilosec I am feeling much better.

This week has been an adventure. Just as my ulcer get better I began to think to myself that I was in the clear and I actaully began to worry that I was able to drink too much. On Friday morning I drank 8oz of Gatorade and then soon after drank 8oz of protien shake. As it registered that I had drank my shake on the 20 minute drive without a problem, I began to worry that my stomach had stretched. After all, I am only supposed to be able to drink 4 oz in 30 minutes.

About 1 hour later, my stomach began to violently cramp and a ran for the closest drop toilet! (YUK) My body expelled everything, every which way, several times over. Hmmm - this is what is know as Dumping Syndrome. I hadn't experience it before and am not looking forward to ever experiencing it again! I had sweats, shaking, dizziness - it was horrible.

Yesterday and today I have also thrown up during the mornings and then as the day wears on I am able to stomach and few tablespoons of food.

Well, at least I know my tummy hasn't stretched!

Almost 5 weeks Post-Op - 175.5pounds (30 lost)

Pre-Op 205.5lbs (BEFORE)

Getting Very Nervous

Well surgery is only a few days away and I am really nervous. I am not sure what I'm nervous about though. I guess a part of me is worried about something going wrong on the operating table and a part of me is worried about pain post - surgery. I think I am also worried about my success afterwards. NOthing else has ever worked - long term. I am afraid that I will be one of those people who will regain the weight in 5 yrs...