Compulsive Eating

I guess the good news is that I notice myself doing it. The bad thing is that I can't control it quite yet. I made Christmas cookies for my parents neighbours, of course, I taste tested my product - as a good chef would do. I became osessed over these little lime meltaways. They weren't even that good. I just kept going back for another one and another one until I had eaten about 10 of them - maybe more. I felt sick, but then I felt like I needed to eat - I guess that's what they call a trigger food. So I ate wassa bread with hummus and cheese - a good meal, but I ate twice as much as I should have. Still, I wanted to eat, so I ate grapes - way too many of them. Then after a couple hours of fighting the urge to puke, I gave in and puked.

Then I went down and ate half a slice of meatloaf - and puked that up. Then after dinner, I snacked on some pistachios and was able to control the portion, but I still felt like snacking. I gravitated towards the meltaways - I wanted some so badly. This broken one kept calling to me to be eaten. What is the deal with that? Ididn't eat it - only because my sister stoped me though...

147.5lbs - Minus 58lbs

I have been trying really hard lately to eat my protien and still am not getting enough in. I really enjoy having oatmeal in the morning but it doesn't have any protien. My hair is getting quite thin - luckily it started off really, really thick. I also need to exersize. I think about it every day but haven't been doing it. TODAY! I will do a tape while Wyatt is napping.